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Yani and Aki :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 85 9 AvatarGirlz :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 168 28
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Azula :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 123 29
AkiGym :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 144 50
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AkiAnimation :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 209 63
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SpiderBack :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 166 35
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Clip Studio :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 110 27
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SteamPic2 :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 161 18
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Bratty Muscle 2 :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 106 19
JuriFootWork :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 62 30
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Love Boost :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 121 28
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Shirt :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 179 26
PervyJuri :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 132 27
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BrattySketch :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 98 21
My Waifuuu :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 128 22
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Bratty Muscle :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 117 17


Art Collab with Guitartist03 (AKI!) :iconbioshin26:Bioshin26 65 12 Gift: Cool Night :iconmetawarrior94:MetaWarrior94 25 15 Idle Pictchi :iconthecottoncandyqueen:TheCottonCandyQueen 33 10
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Growth Drive: Mouse Girl Invincible 6 :icondocwolph:DocWolph 72 4
Blessings to you, you, and you :iconnewberrychucks:NewberryChucks 36 42 PUMP Dump #3 (OC Edition) :iconbroozerpunch:BroozerPunch 41 15 Fun with Legos! :iconbioshin26:Bioshin26 208 33 Foxy Foxy Foxy (Com) :iconcaractacus-seagoon:Caractacus-Seagoon 29 8 Pump Up Their Volumes. :iconatariboy2600:Atariboy2600 133 9 Ultra Muscle Girls Prologue page 3 :icondepraveddefense:DepravedDefense 130 13 Pictchi Doodles :iconthecottoncandyqueen:TheCottonCandyQueen 66 16 Warrior Princess Zelda :iconeyaldegabli:EyalDegabli 182 41 Hydie Commission 3 :iconjinworks:JINworks 40 2
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Hydie Commission 1 :iconjinworks:JINworks 52 2
Chura And Might :iconthe-sleuth:the-Sleuth 70 9 Big Biceps Girl :icontyperain:typerain 144 9




Since i was in school i thought the best way to avoid trouble is to be by myself
As pathetic as it sounds, it's very true. It was the only way i was able to stop being bullied. Being by myself made me an easy target i suppose but because of that i was
able to blend into the background, however, that made it hard to make friends. I've been by myself for a long time and it just feels "normal" so i never really thought about it

When i first mustered up the courage to post something online on deviant art(after just having an account and just looking for a couple of years) was really nervous tbh, but some
welcomed me to the "community". I wasn't expecting that but felt really nice. I don't think i ever really thanked every one for welcoming me and i apologize for not saying it sooner
After being here for a year (or 2 i think?) i was happy I made progress in a way, even though sometimes(if not all the time) i feel like im never close

But it seems even online, im constantly reminded, i'll be by myself regardless of what i do
Just because you've chatted with someone, doesn't mean they like you or even care
Just because you shared something with them, doesn't mean you're close or they understand
Just because you say "hello" or "goodbye", doesn't mean they'll say it back

I was welcomed when i first came here, but it seems once that's done it becomes..dry
I was really excited to meet/chat with some of the artist i looked up too, only to find out they didn't care how much because i wasn't a "top artist"
I've lost respect for some artist i looked up to, wondering why they only speak to one another depending on their skill. Never understood that but that's how it is i suppose
I'm sure at some point they started out the same way i did and everyone else, so i really don't understand why some can be like that
Biggest mistake you can do, is ask them for advice. it seems some don't have a "nice" way of saying they can't. I understand that not every artist is a teacher, but i don't think it would hurt to be a bit humble and consider other's feelings

Even for a little while I manged to play with some people, even hear their voice, but like everything else, it ended soon and i ended up back where i was
I never thought a bad thing about being by myself and it never hurt me, but now i think i understand the feeling when one is left behind. im not sure how to put it but it feels "heavy" i think
im not sure if that's a bad feeling though. just what it feels like

Im sorry if it sounds like im being odd. Suppose that's what happens when you're by yourself for several years. Don't get me wrong, i have family, but we don't communicate much after my mother died years
Still, it's nice to see there are others who like this kind of work, but i have to face facts(as much as it sucks) 
Some here have friends online that they chat with everyday, it wouldn't be right of me getting in the way of that, even if it makes me feel alone again 

If you made it here, Thank you for taking the time and sorry for boring you ^^;
Sometimes writing things down can put you at ease a bit and hope i didn't weird anyone out in the process



Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States


Yani and Aki
I made a sketch of Aki
Bioshin made a sketch of Yani

We traded and used our own inking style to finish and color each other's sketch
Fun collab (^_^)
Who needs Anatomy! XD

Yani (c) :iconbioshin26:
Aki (c) Me
Since i wasn't going to color them, i thought changing the background color would make them show a bit
Grey seems to work:shrug: rvmp 

Azula Toph Kitara (c) Nickelodeon


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FischHead Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012   Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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