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LapiDot :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 128 18
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FaiL :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 87 27
MAG CollaB :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 47 13 BunnyDay2 :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 100 12 EasterDay :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 136 46 ClayAki2 :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 22 15 ClayAki :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 18 14 Poolside :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 125 32
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Oh welp :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 105 41 Yani and Aki :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 116 10 AvatarGirlz :iconguitartist03:guitartist03 190 29
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Good morning :iconmetawarrior94:MetaWarrior94 19 11 Commission : A Date with Maud Pie :iconbakki:bakki 388 28
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The mystery of the shrinking clothes :icondevmgf:devmgf 144 24
AKI :iconuzomistudio:UZOMISTUDIO 105 19
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Commission - Mount Lady muscle growth sequence :iconmatl:MATL 279 23
Happy Easter! 2017 :iconbioshin26:Bioshin26 83 9
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Hyper Muscle Cynder :iconoutlawmonkey:OutlawMonkey 49 16
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[C] Velma Dinkley and Daphne 3 :iconroemesquita:roemesquita 224 4
[C] Ranfan :iconroemesquita:roemesquita 161 22 [C] Azula :iconroemesquita:roemesquita 190 31
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Annie1 :iconjucktod:jucktod 120 10
Guilty Gear | Ino Dakimakura :iconlightning-seal:lightning-seal 95 10 Something in the Water :iconfurrymusclegrowthfan:FurryMuscleGrowthFan 44 6 Down the rabbit hole :iconfurrymusclegrowthfan:FurryMuscleGrowthFan 15 4 PokeFBB: Hex Maniac :iconstaggerdagger:staggerdagger 60 6
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Since i was in school i thought the best way to avoid trouble is to be by myself
As pathetic as it sounds, it's very true. It was the only way i was able to stop being bullied. Being by myself made me an easy target i suppose but because of that i was
able to blend into the background, however, that made it hard to make friends. I've been by myself for a long time and it just feels "normal" so i never really thought about it

When i first mustered up the courage to post something online on deviant art(after just having an account and just looking for a couple of years) was really nervous tbh, but some
welcomed me to the "community". I wasn't expecting that but felt really nice. I don't think i ever really thanked every one for welcoming me and i apologize for not saying it sooner
After being here for a year (or 2 i think?) i was happy I made progress in a way, even though sometimes(if not all the time) i feel like im never close

But it seems even online, im constantly reminded, i'll be by myself regardless of what i do
Just because you've chatted with someone, doesn't mean they like you or even care
Just because you shared something with them, doesn't mean you're close or they understand
Just because you say "hello" or "goodbye", doesn't mean they'll say it back

I was welcomed when i first came here, but it seems once that's done it becomes..dry
I was really excited to meet/chat with some of the artist i looked up too, only to find out they didn't care how much because i wasn't a "top artist"
I've lost respect for some artist i looked up to, wondering why they only speak to one another depending on their skill. Never understood that but that's how it is i suppose
I'm sure at some point they started out the same way i did and everyone else, so i really don't understand why some can be like that
Biggest mistake you can do, is ask them for advice. it seems some don't have a "nice" way of saying they can't. I understand that not every artist is a teacher, but i don't think it would hurt to be a bit humble and consider other's feelings

Even for a little while I manged to play with some people, even hear their voice, but like everything else, it ended soon and i ended up back where i was
I never thought a bad thing about being by myself and it never hurt me, but now i think i understand the feeling when one is left behind. im not sure how to put it but it feels "heavy" i think
im not sure if that's a bad feeling though. just what it feels like

Im sorry if it sounds like im being odd. Suppose that's what happens when you're by yourself for several years. Don't get me wrong, i have family, but we don't communicate much after my mother died years
ago.
Still, it's nice to see there are others who like this kind of work, but i have to face facts(as much as it sucks) 
Some here have friends online that they chat with everyday, it wouldn't be right of me getting in the way of that, even if it makes me feel alone again 

If you made it here, Thank you for taking the time and sorry for boring you ^^;
Sometimes writing things down can put you at ease a bit and hope i didn't weird anyone out in the process

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LapiDot
Another Old Krita file

Was going to add more to it when I streamed it but people didn't seem interested anymore
So lost motivation to finish

Figured i'd toss it in my sketch folder

Lapis and Peridot (c) Rebecca Sugar
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FaiL
Old Krita file
i have a few sketches in there but since i have clip, i guess there's no point in finishing them
So i might upload them to my sketch folder

Not much of a story here. Main reason why i titled it "Fail"

Aki and Lissandra (c) Me
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MAG CollaB
A Collab from the group :iconmag-interactive:
Everyone here looks amazing.

i didn't know everyone was gonna be human though
Aki looks too cartoony it seems and i guess makes her look odd around Human charactersOnionhead cry - Onion head 
Wish i could've gotten a heads up

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guitartist03 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problemo!!
Keep up the good work!
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BrokenGlass1 Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Hi!
A friend of mine's working on a manga project: a shonen fantasy one
If you're interested this is his profile [link] and this the site where you can find the manga scan [link]
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FischHead Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012   Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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